I just got back yesterday from our little mini vacation....me and the kids had soooo much fun!! I really enjoyed spending time with them.
I think my H was sad that he missed it....good!!
I know he was sad...he texted me a few time while we were gone to tell me he was really having some down days lately....
All I said was that I was sorry. He replyed it was ok.
When we came back, he was texting me saying he was really worried about us....it was my first trip alone on the interstate and all that! I did good!! Didnt even get lost once!!
He is still spinning, it is sad. We met at tkd last night and he and I went for a walk while they were in class, we talked about my trip with the kids....
He told me he was proud of me for going it alone. Was curious if I had a boyfriend, then he tells me that he told the OW about wanting to go with us on our trip...she was mad about that. I have no idea why he told me that....He also claimed she and him were only good friends. Said he wouldnt be able to go to ball practice tonight because he was going somewhere with her....
Then he calls me late last night to tell me that he would be at practice, he wasnt going with her....
H did make a couple of passes at me while we were walking, I looked at him and asked was he still on his medications??
He said yes....
Him missing just one therapy session has messed him up again.
Things arent all that great with him...
He thinks he can just walk right back into my life.
All the comments he made or said last night are all the same ones from before.
Can you believe he is still going in this circle??
I have no idea what is going on with him.
Is he going to have a nervous breakdown??
Seems it may come to that.
Im tired of it. I am my own person. I will not let him control me.
This is so stupid!! He has lost his marbles....
He hasnt asked to come back, but he sure is missing me....or missing something...
I almost feel at times I have to "mommie" him.
If I dont call or text back, he acts like a child!
I wish I could talk to his therapist and tell her what he is up to lately.
I wont, just want him better....My son told me last night that it was ok for daddy to love me, but he could never ever move back home....unless it was for the rest of his life!!
Sad, just because he saw us laughing together, he had questions of why we were laughing.
On the good side, Im not letting it get to me. It is an endless cycle on his part, and he can keep spinning. I think its funny that the OW is the one having to put up with it!!
I am so looking forward to the weekend......
Hope everyone is doing well!!!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
