Well, I kind of expected he would say what he did about working on things...which to be honest I can understand how he feels. In fact, as I have said the past few days...I am feeling the same way. I guess the difference is that I am willing to try because I made a commitment to him .
I just hate the lying. I mean he is still lying to me...how would I ever be able to trust him again? As for the picture...why now?? She never had a picture up like that when they were living together (which I completely expected at the time)...so why now? Why after he has been gone for three months?
I asked him if she knew that he saw me regularly and if she knew we had talked about working everything out and he said yes. So now I am wondering if she thought I would see it...was it to cause drama? Well, I guess it worked. But really, what would she get out of it? It isn't like he is going to move back there.
I am stepping back from the drama for a while. I told him that last night. I told him I am just tired from all of this. So he said "is it all or nothing?" I told him no, it isn't all or nothing...that if he wanted to call me, then call me...but the ball is in his court. I am tired of being the one making all the effort whether it is for us getting back together or just for a friendship..one person shouldn't have to do all the work.
One more side note about the picture. I think I have mentioned this before but she is a dj...so the radio station has a myspace page. It is actually a pretty big radio station and I guess you could say she is well known. So she keeps up the radio myspace page...so not only is this picture on her page...it is on the page for the freakin' radio station. It is just embarassing to say the least.
