End of Piecing?

[saffie]

Hope,

When we realise it is happening we try and 'time out'. In the past I have said that I would like at least a couple of weeks without certain pressures being exerted, or topics of conversation raised, so that I can try and get my head together. That often helps.

I re-assure my H that I do love him and that I am exploring why I feel like I do - he knows I am reading about things all the time and trying as much as I can do in my own way to keep working on the M. I am working at expanding my 'comfort zones'.

Basically I know I don't want to be with anyone else but I don't know why I get to feel so disconnected at times. In the past I didn't communicate about any of it at all and so my H thought I no longer cared about him which ended up in him having an A. Now I talk to him he knows I care. My reaction to his A showed him just how much I cared and he was quite shocked.

I have spent a fair amount of time having cognitive behavioural therapy. I really have to look at why I react the way I do, and then once I understand it, challenge myself and move forwards. Not always easy. I also find that I seem to either function on a practical level - ie keep the house ticking over etc and all the balls up in the air - or I function on an emotional, sorting myself out level, when the rest of me shuts down and I seem to reside in my head. I don't think I am explaining this very well - sorry.

Anyways - about that book I mentioned. I think Mom might find it helpful. I was given a link to an article about it by someone but I feel unsure as to whether I can post it or not with things being the way they are on here. I will have a think about how I can get it to you.