sig other bday on 4 april

[buenosuerte]

The last time we were "together" was the week of valentines day. We spent like 5 days together as a couple spending the nights together speaking thru the day. it all fell apart when i got into an arguement with his mother- he was supposed to watch our d 6mos, os i could sub but again chose work over caring for her, i blew up at his mom. we didn't speak for a couple of weeks, i went to his house, told him i couldn't take it anymore, told him i was looking for teaching job in my other d16 state- he was like no don't go if you stay we can work it out, all the while he's supposed to pay us $ to live off of- a decision we mad in jan to let me go of my teaching contract. we seem to go back and forth, the last contact i told him i went to file paperwork for child support (yeah wrong reasons)that he made a promise to give us $ for food, utilities etc. and doesn't-always claimed he has to pay something else not related to home or family, the last thing he did was ask for my new phone number and said let me come to you, you don't do anything let me come to you. what the heck am i supposed to do with that. i mean i read into it like he's going to come back at me and pursue me? take it as he needs some space? sort things out? get over his anger? i can only guess what he would say he is angry at an arguement we will never solve-him leaving and walking away or me kicking him out, i even told him we would never agree on that and just had to let it go. the more i think about it, i don't think he's angry at me more at himself. he admits he doesn't know what to do, admits he feels like he's ruined my life, etc. (he feels that way because when we met, i was in my career just finished my masters degree, had a life and he has take so much from me, eventually iw ill have to put my dogs down, repo my car, etc) my responses to him have always been well you have the power to not ruin it. i don't want to work, i want to be a mom to our d, something i did not get to do with my other d(previous marriage)so i think he has turned his angry he has for himself on me. boy i think i just wrote a short book to your question, sorry if it is confusing.