Well, looks like I am not as detached as I thought. Tonight for whatever reason I looked at OW's myspace page. I haven't looked at that in months...but like a big dummy I looked at it tonight. Her page is private but I can always just see that main picture. Well....what was the picture? Ready for this? ...A picture of her and H kissing!!!!! Made me want to puke. He told me very matter of factly a couple of weeks ago that NOTHING had ever gone on with them...she was one of the guys. I bet he doesn't kiss any of the guys like that.
Well, I couldn't help it. I called him and I went over there. He said "well, we did kiss...but that was it". Whatever. Does he think I am an idiot? I told him at this point it isn't what they did....it is being flat out lied to about it that makes me so mad.
What makes me the maddest is that everyone can see that pic. She is on his page and everyone on his page (sister, cousins, friends) can see that picture. It really makes me sick to my stomach. He said he was going to call her and ask her to take it off, but who knows. Well, I guess it is out in the open now since none of his friends knew about her. I had told his sis but he pretty much told her I was crazy for even thinking that. Looks like she probably just put it up today since H hadn't seen it and she just updated her page.
He told me tonight that he wasn't ready to work on things anymore. He said he CAN'T do it right now. He isn't emotionally ready. He feels nothing. He said it isn't about me, he feels that way towards everyone, even his family. He said his mom probably feels the same way I do.
He told me he feels like if he calls me and asks me to do things then he is giving me false hope. Actually he said he feels I will be thinking "oh goody!, he wants us to get back together". When he said that I told him not to flatter himself because he isn't exactly a great catch right now. I don't think I would be thinking "oh, goody!" What a jerk.
We didn't really fight, I cried a little. When I left I told him I wasn't going to call him anymore. I told him he could call me, but I was done being the one to put in all the effort. I'm am going to stick to that. I will not call him. I guess I should move out of the piecing forum as it doesn't seem I am piecing anymore.
