I am just not going to answer the phone at all. If he manages to get a hold of me, I guess I'll just tell him that the kids wanted to talk to him. I won't go down this road. I just know that being emotional and available is not good right now. Today I was like a doormat. I made deposits into his account for him when he got paid. I paid a few bills for him when he asked me to. it was ridiculous! I have GOT to stop helping him out! It is really difficult because his LL is Acts of Service. I know those are the things that matter to him, but for now I just need to distance myself completely from him. I have been dim but not dark. I have got to go dark.
