I think I will now call you both the "Sisters of Sanity"! I know you both wouldn't or don't mind being grouped together. First of all, you are both right coming from two different ends of the stick. Good idea's abound and they have brought something for my mind to chew on instead of it's own material. HMMPH!

I think my clergyman might be a good place to start since I don't have any insurance for the trained Psych. Plus, I don't really think it's a meds thing, its more of a outlook thing. Physically I redid the kitchen, sanding and refinished all the cabinets and last on my list is the kitchen floor. I need to get this house ready to sell no matter what direction my life takes. This last weekend we had some fracas on the street corner and a stray bullet entered the living room and took the Armoire out. I had been sitting there an hour earlier. \:o More Grey matter for the safety of family and myself and feel cursed to a certain degree. I agree to forget about the "m", there can be no marriage without me in it...right? So Cat and Aud, thank you for replies of worth and compassion. I heed your words more than you know...Who knows, if I actually do make something of myself and this sitch, a complimentary fruit basket or (whatever) will be in both of your possessions! Taking a deep breath of reassurance and making my hands come together in thanks for the "Sisters of Sanity".....peace