OMG! I had a MAJOR moment of weakness!! I had the strongest urge this afternoon to call H to talk about R. What was I thinking?!?! Someone must be watching over me that knows better. When I called it went to VM. By the time he called back I had come to my senses, so I didn't answer the phone. I have been saying that I am going dark, but I really haven't at all. When he calls, I answer. I find myself making excuses to call him! I have GOT to stop that!! I think I am going to TRULY go dark now. I don't think I am strong enough yet to have regular contact with him. Please keep cheering me on guys! I need all the help I can get!
