H came over this am, he didnt want to go anywhere so we just hung out around the house. He was only here about 2 1/2 so it was pretty good. Things went great today!! I made us lunch we hung out I was happy, cheerful, talked to him about work. NO R talk finally so that was good. I was much more affectionate then I have been...hugged him a few times and we kissed. I feel like a high school kid saything that but it's been a LONG time!! He seemed to enjoy being here for once but when he left he seemed pretty down again. I'm sure he didnt want to go to work. Said he would try to be back tom. night so I could get out of the house and do soemthing but if not definately on saturday. I really hope this is what he wants, it felt so good to be connected again I dont want to get disappointed! OH one last thing he told me today that the PA is over it's just an EA now. Not sure I totally believe him but he brought it up I never asked...maybe just maybe there is a shred of hope left for us
