Hanging in there....

[Sugar and Spice]

Maybe so, but just for my own piece of mind, I need a break from it all. The attorney was depressing. If I was to start the proceedings right now, I would end up having to sell my house and that is the last thing I want. My support would also decrease, the minute she files for support. WTF? How the hell does that seem fair, but it does...

So for the time being I will just remain in this holding pattern. I don't want to sell my house because my kids have suffered enough in this. I want them to be able to go through school with the same friends and have the stability I didn't, sounds really Beaver Cleaver, but it something I promised that I would do if I could.

My H needs to get his S&%t together and that is on him. He will eventually have to make some decisions and face the consequences of his actions. For the time being, I just need to be the best me I can be and the best mom and stop wallowing in the drama and just GAL!!!

I have to see him because we have 2 baseball games a week for each kid and at least he helps me with those. The games during the week are usually at 5:15 and I get off at 5. He gets off at 2:30, so he picks them up and gets them ready, so I guess it could be worse. We shall see...