Guys I think I figured out why I feel so reluctant. When we were together we would talk on the phone and call each other WHENEVER. But after the first bomb he told me he didn't want to talk to me for at least a month and if I wanted to contact him I should contact him by email or letter, unless it was something "important". Then there was bomb #2. Then five months go by. I think I am still in the mode of thinking calling him on the phone is "forbidden" or "breaking the rules" (even though, when I called him to offer to move to NYC so we could be together in the same place, I left a voicemail, b/c I wanted him to hear my tone of voice). I am afraid of "making him angry". This is something I honestly was never afraid of before the bombs, it was not part of the dynamic of our relationship at all, but after the bombs, I was walking on eggshells, and feel like there are still eggshells all over the floor.
Please reassure me that these "rules" are no longer valid. I feel so retarded!!!
