Feeling hope

[LuvMyHusband]

Hi Saffie,
neither of us want a divorce. Remember...I had an A too. I'm not such a hypocrite. I have worked hard to make changes in myself and he says he has seen them. We both realize you can't rebuild a R based on lies and secrets. Last night, he told me what I had been suspecting. It just wasn't with who I had been suspecting it was with. He took full responsibility and is going to take steps to get help for himself and our M. He is taking the job and is thinking of ways to get us out of the mess we are in financially. I am exhausted in every way. It's ironic that now he is wanting to be close to me I feel myself wanting to pull away from him. I don't feel angry. I don't know what I feel. It's like I don't feel anything. Nothing. He has spent months pushing me away and not wanting to be here or around me so this seems weird, hard to believe. I have been compassionate, kind and considerate. I know where he's at and how he's feel. Been there, done that and I know how I would have like to been treated then. In fact I remember telling him once that I hoped if he was ever in that position that I treated him this way. What really hurts is the names he has called me the last few months knowing what he was doing.