Hang in there DMB. Don't know what else I can say. I feel your pain. I'm having a kind of down day also, but I got a note from a co-worker a couple of days ago and part of his note has helped me the last few days. I'll share it with everyone here who needs a lift.
It's from the book of Galatians, 6:9 "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up".
Keep your chin up. I know I, and everyone here on this forum, will be able to look themselves in the mirror and LIKE what they see looking back at them. I'm pretty sure the waywards do not get that same feeling.
Hope4us
Me - 49, W 49 S22 & S18 Dday 9/4/07 W claims NC 4/7/08 8/29/09 - Divorce Busted. Lots to work through, but we're going to make it.