Believe me i do act as if in this case or other wise i think i would have been gone!
Tal, Im doing just fine. Only because I can vent here and really think before I speak to H. He is still kissing azz right now and Im trying to remain detached he keeps trying to reel me back in. Probobly so he can go on as ha was without worrying about me leaving. It isn't happening this time. DIstance it is until he makes some decisions.
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
YA know what I think Iv'e figured out why H loves me but is not emotionally connected.
Easter H got a picture blown up of him and I and put it in a frame a friend of ours had gotten from the phillipines. along with a card . Never has he done something like that for easter. Made me feel special. I would think he was just cycling if not for the fact that he did not do this at all through his crisis. (never showed feelings or said things he didn't mean).
I thought about it for a while and what I feel is that he does love me but is waiting for those in love feelings like what he felt for OW when he was falling for her.
Now I have to think of ways to make him have those feelings for me again. I know, flirt act like his girlfriend ect... But it's a lot harder when youv'e been married for 31 years to achieve the status of new girlfriend. Should I discuss this with him?
Any suggestions? Do you think I may be in the ballpark here?
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
H is right back to feeling comfortable I think because he thinks im'e ok with the last convo. Wrong, just have been busy with the Holiday being sick and two jobs. by this weekend I hope to have some GAL activities lined up for my sanity and want to create some mystery also. Including working on the basement.
JAK
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You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
You've got that right.. im sick of this winter weather.. the kids have been sick on and off for two weeks. Ive had to cancel S2 speach therpy 3 times because of sickness... Its getting old.
Its not supposed to be so nice tomorrow, so I think im going to have to find someting constructive for them to do.
I hope your doing ok. I know you are fustrated right now with him, but either way I know you will do fine.
Have a nice day!
tal
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
However, what if you started acting as if YOU believe otherwise. 
Should I discuss this with him?