Luv,
I am always blown away by these WAS. I read your story and teared up. I am so sorry, especially for your children. It's hard for you but to a child ... they just can't comprehend it. Their world centers around their home, their parents. When something goes awry in that world, many of them think it's their fault. I would seriously consider finding someone they can talk to.

((( HUGS )))

Joie