Back on the Roller Coaster - OW still around

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FA,

If H is still seeing OW it is less and less, he seems to be spending more and more time with you and D. He does seem to be moving closer to you. It seems the more we detach the more the S moves towards us.

I know how you feel about dating, I think I might be wanting to also. I go back and forth on it, one day it seems exciting the next it's depressing because of leaving our M behind. I'd rather start dating my W and working on starting a new M, but as of now she isn't interested. The run in with my old friend, I guess has made me realize that I'm still desirable and attractive. Something my W hasn't made me feel in a few years.

Talked to D19 tonight, she said W has asked her about me dating, she tells her she doesn't know. I just tell her I'm meeting a friend. W did say that she thought I put a GPS unit on her car to follow her, she took the car someplace to have them look for a unit on it, is that paranoid or what? I'm detached to the point now I don't care where or what she does. I'm going to start calling her more often, three times a week, and find an excuse to go to D24's house at least once more.

One thing W got serious about and asked was why the boys won't have anything to do with her, are they mad at her for wanting a D? I told her that they are as all the kids don't want us to D. But they have given up calling you. In conversations with both S's at different times, they said they've called her numerous times and you never returned their calls. I reminded her that I told her of this twice, that she needs to call them. She said something about caller ID not working on her phone, but it works when I call her. I think this might be further evidence of MLC and told her. Don't know if she still will deny, but I told her I have seen her go through the stages of a MLC. Her not contacting S's was part of her withdrawal.

I'm feeling fine since I graduated from cardiac rehab, now I'm doing rehab on my shoulder. It's still sore but not as bad. I start refereeing next weekend, it's called the MASC Tournament. next weekend is boys the following is the girls. They draw about 450 teams each weekend.

I'm going to do boys u-14 gold (top) division. I think I'll be in the best shape to start the season than I've ever been in.

Mike