The last couple of days I was feeling really good then today back to the rollercoaster. H and I decided to sell his car. He got a new job in Jan. and was given a work car so hasent driven his in 3 months. I told him I would go and get it cleaned out and around so I can put it up for sale tomorrow. As I'm cleaning the car I found some items in there from OW son. Toys, stickers, crayons and m&m's. I realize that it was at least three months ago but still VERY hurtful. H hasent been around his own child much so it's hard to think of the three of them "playing family". I was proud of myself that I didnt say anything to H.
H says he is coming over in the am for a few hours before he has to work. Trying to think of something to go and do. When we sit around the house for too long things seem to go bad. End up talking about R crap or arguing....we both need a distraction to keep us focused on having fun.
H has told several of our friends he is afraid to come back to the marriage and have things not work and then to be left alone. States that is why he wont leave OW. That is so frustrating and unfair I want to smack him!!!! Hopefully showing him a little affection and having a good time together will change his mind soon.
I hear you on the STD's have definately thought of that as I work in the medical field. All I know about OW is she is 24, divorced and has a 5 year old son. Sounds like she is a bar whore from what I hear.....I know I need to be careful!
Again thank you so much for continued help, listening and suggestion's. It really has helped me more than you know!!!!
