Hi sh- We all do seem to crash from time to time. But those of us who have been doing this awhile know that as time goes on, we do bounce back quicker.
Sorry to hear you have been stressed about finances. If you can stand on your own, it might be the best for you. Do you have any kind of financial arrangement with your H or does he just give you $ when he feels like it? If you don't, you might want to think about getting one.
You will be okay...devine sign or not. You are a strong, intelligent woman who can take care of herself and her kids. Don't doubt yourself.