This is how the "butterflies" feel for me right now. You know when you're in high school and have a really big crush on the quarterback, but there is no way in hell he would ever consider going out with you? That is how I feel when I see him. It is this unrequited love feeling that just sticks in your belly. I can't shake it. When my computer goes to the screensaver there are all these pictures of him, and I feel it. It hurts so bad, but I don't want that feeling to go away. I can't understand how that feeling went away for him. When he was over last night I wanted to get all dolled up and put on some makeup, but he would have known. I NEVER where makeup. I want to impress him, but it would just be so obvious and desperate, I think. I'm hoping the feeling goes down to a low hum, rather than the feeling I have now. I don't think it will ever go away.
