I have been off and on sad all day and when H texts me at the exact time he is supposed to be there (so I can go to work), it hit the roof. I called him, said I didn't have time to text back and forth, what does he want. I went off on him about being reliable and hung up on him. He wasn't phased by my rants, took it, and kept saying "I know, I know". I am so angry at him right now. I calmed down and said to him that he needs to follow through with the kids or find someone that can. I am tired of this being my life. If he would just be reliable so I could actually go to work, then he wouldn't hear from me at all. Trust me.
D3 heard my loud exchange with H on the phone and said "Why you angry wif Daddy?". I could have cried. I had no choice, I tried to go in another room, and believe me, I would have gone off more if she hadn't been there. She was all worried about if she needed a babysitter, where was she going... Broken heart here. I hugged her and said "Mommy had to talk loud, Daddy was in a loud place (a bar, yes, a bar). We'll get you situated." She was fine after that, but I am mad at myself for doing it.
