We have been married for 43 years. The last 12 years have been hell. My husband reconciled with his mother in 1991 after not speaking for over 20 years. After that the only woman in his life was his mother. She never had anything according to her and I had everything house, cars etc. He spent the next 11 years making it up to her and lying to me. Needless to say, we spent alot of time not speaking. When she was dying he turned to another woman for help. He couldn't discuss his feelings with me because he had lied for so long about everything he had done for his mother. He was able to talk to the OW. She sent him a note about being in a unfilling relationship. After meeting with her for drinks and understanding they started an affair and he told me he wanted out. In the meantime, the OW had been divorced twice and had countless boyfriends. She had been living with a man for over 7 years and threw him out for my husband. They were together for over 4 months. He even got Viagra. After his mother died, he wanted me back. Because of family circumstances, I took him back and we started counseling. To this day, he will not admit to me that they had an affair. She was just a good friend. All his friends knew about the affair. One couple went on vacation with my husband and the OW twice. I know that the OW is back with her old boyfriend because a mutual friend told me. Ow has nothing good to say about my husband. I know he's a good BSer and and she obviously believed every word he said. I have no sympathy for her. When I think about the two of them together I want to throw-up. As I read the posts I can relate to the pain. It's encouraging to read the people that have eventually were able to move on with their lives. It's been a year now, and the most frustrating part is the fact, he can't admit the truth and is still friendly with the couple he went on vacation with. I never want to see them for the rest of my life. I've stopped even trying to talk to him about it. He says he loves me and wants me but there's no apology, no remorse.