I've not posted to you before, but now seemed like a really good time. I hope you are okay and survived the day. Things really do get different and better after D day.
It's a whole new beginning....now it's time to do the things you never got to do....you know....those moments you've had when you've said to yourself....."man....to be single".....Nothing scarey and it will be a new adventure. Embrace it and runwith it when you can.
You're not 100 years old so don't sit around and say I can't do tihs or can't do that.
How's it going? I guess that the Divorce is behind you now. I know that right now it must be painful but this is the worst of it and the worst is now behind you. Now you are free to move on to the life you want. I know right now it's all pretty overwhelming but it will get easier and you will be happy again.
THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR CHECKING IN ON ME!!!!! I am still alive!! Just feeling sad still. It's been an even more difficult week since I knew ex H and ow were on the beach in Mexico!!!! I was extra mad that it appeared that D17 didn't know where they were. As it turned out SHE knew--she was just trying to protect ME!
Saw him today for the first time since the D! I told him he needed to call before he came over!!!! Did a little venting and I told him I just wasn't ready to act like nothing was wrong! He changed the subject and talked about buying a car for D17. I totally disagree with buying it now--he had mentioned buying one later if she worked harder in school. He wants to buy it now, but make ME put the restrictions on the use of it. He can be the hero; I can be mean ol' Mom!
Later, I sent him an email and said I just wish that one day he would admit that we both had a role in this divorce (I really wanted him to admit it was ALL HIS FAULT, but I didn't say that). I have felt all along that he put all the blame on ME(since I "refused" to clean the house to his standards, thus not "respecting" him...or something like that. I told him again that a messy house would never equal having an ow!!! I did get an email back saying we both had a part. He also apologized for his part!!! NOW maybe I can move on a bit easier!
To see you is my dream I wish my dreams of you to be in color The richest most vibrant color one can imagine I wish my dreams of you to be of feeling The most vibrant and complete feelings anyone can experience I wish my dreams of you to be of suspense For a woman like you is full of mystery and intrigue For my dream you are my princess And I am just a poor soul who has nothing but my dreams
"All I want is a weeks pay for a day's work" Steve Martin
(((((Mattie))))))) I'm thinking of you. Now it's time to live and do the things you've always wanted to do.
As far as the car goes, here are my thoughts. Let him go ahead and get the car now. You never know, he may change his mind later and then you will get burdened with a car payment by yourself. Isn't she a senior? She will definitely need a car when she graduates. Perhaps both of you could both list some rules for the car usage. Draw up like a contract of sorts and both sign it. These rules could include discipline as well as grades.
I know how you feel as far as daughter goes. It seems like I'm the one who has to be the one that enforces all the rules, stay up at night to make sure she gets home safely, make sure she is keeping her grades up, etc... But I am so thankful to have DD16 with me, all of the rest seems like small stuff. I know you feel the same way.
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon
Hill--beautiful! You are so creative, as well as a sensitive person!!! Thank you for making my day!
Yoyo, D17 is a junior. That is a smart idea to let him buy car before he changes his mind. Having a joint decision on the rules is critical. He wants me to put her on my insurance policy--and she can pay me back. It might be more effective to keep that deal between D17 and dad. (She is actually already on my policy so I need to check how much an extra car costs).
Still trying to figure out what it is I want to do!!! I am Still looking for a new job. I will be more flexible after D17 graduates, but not sure I can wait that long for a new job. I need something NOW to make me feel like I have a purpose!
