I am no one to judge you, but I don't think I would ever make the choice you have made. It would hurt ME too much to know I was not faithful to my wife and my commitment to her. I value my own sense of honor too much. Maybe this sounds strange but I think if it came to it I would get a D before I would have an A.
FredD
The most important thing a father can do for his children is to love their mother.
