H asked for divorce last night...HELP!

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the doctor didn't say anything about anti-depressants. maybe i should ask? i feel like i can't even make basic decisions right now. this isn't me!! i hate it!

i went to visit my father-in-law yesterday. he just got out of the hospital and my sister-in-law was there with her kids and i had to excuse myself to cry in the bathroom. i just kept thinking how i wouldn't be a part of the family anymore. and that may be the last time i would ever be there. they are being very supportive but at the end of the day they are still his family, not mine.

i really want to pack up and move home with mom and dad. but i know that's a cop-out. they would love for me to come home but i'm 31 yrs old and i'm not sure moving back in with mom and dad would be the best thing right now. even though it would be very comforting.

i know i can't stay here in new york...too many memories. i just need to decide whether i'm going back to ohio where my family is or to phoenix where my best friend is. it think there are more opportunities in phoenix but i know my friend has a husband and child and may not have alot of time for me. at least in ohio i have my family. i'm just so confused!

i had to muster up every ounce of strength to make it to work today. i keep excusing myself to go cry but at least i'm here.

thanks for the support everyone. any advice or comments are much appreciated right now.