Neecy, I'm in the same boat as you (or pretty close to it). WW is still at home, but in my case I'm pretty sure the affair is over and they are no longer in contact, but my WW still hasn't committed to the marriage although recently there have been encouraging signs that she may be coming out of the fog of the affair.
It's hard living in limbo land isn't it? I'm just like you. Good days and bad days. Yesterday was good until later in the afternoon and then bad the rest of the night. I woke up at 3:00 am and couldn't go back to sleep because my mind was just racing. But then this morning I called WW on her way to work to warn her that the Deer are out moving and to be careful (I had 3 running next to the road I drive in on. One of the guys who works for me hit one on the way in and had to slam on his brakes to avoid another about 15 minutes later and another guy who works for me had to stop to let 5 deer cross the road in front of him). She was very plesant and thanked me for calling her and told me good by when we hung up. All those things are a big change from a few weeks ago. The biggest problem I have is that my expectations get too high after good interactions.
Just keep your chin up. It will get better one way or another.
Hope4us
Me - 49, W 49 S22 & S18 Dday 9/4/07 W claims NC 4/7/08 8/29/09 - Divorce Busted. Lots to work through, but we're going to make it.
