OK... So I had a big heart to heart with one of my close girlfriends about what this means. She said, she feels like she is very similar to my B in being a somewhat passive communicator. She suggested that he probably agonized over this for a long time before doing it, and then agonized over what exactly to write for a long time. She said, TO HER, it seemed like something SHE would do that would mean, "I haven't heard from you, I don't know where you're at or whether you're happy or whether you hate me, but I miss you and I want to talk to you somehow, I don't know how you will respond, so I will reach out but without exposing myself at all, by writing the most neutral note possible." She said it was like he was throwing a rock at me from within his impenetrable castle walls. How should I respond???
My friend said half jokingly that I could mail him his underwear (I still have about 20 pairs of man underwear here in my apt from when we would have sleepovers) with a note very similar to what he wrote to me, but slightly varied. But mail the underwear *one pair at a time*, so after the third pair or something, with a simililar kind of note, he might start to get the joke and laugh about it.
He put the ball in my court... what do I do now? How long can I wait before it becomes weird?? you know I like to dELIBERATE before taking action.... I am thinking about mailing him something since he mailed me something. It could be something of his that I have, or something funny to share. I know everyone says "send an email, send an email" but to me it just seems so impersonal. We barely ever emailed each other when we were together, except for a couple times when we were traveling and the phone was not possible, or he wanted to send me a "letter" and wanted it to get to me faster than the mail.
that is the update, ladies and gentlemen. I feel so tired... I can't believe how crazy this can make me feel, I thought I was so over that crazy feeling... Good thing I spent the past 5 months strengthening myself.
