He did NOT have to send me this key. Why did he send me a key and not, for example, the almost-transparent nightie I kept at his house for sleepovers??? Why did he send this to me now, after almost five months of no contact?
Even though I was initially disappointed, I tried to slow down and Think Like Michele. I remembered the last time he wrote me, he wrote:
Transformer,
Thank you for sending my mail [I sent him a package of mail that had been accidentally forwarded to my house]; I recieved the package. I talked with the post office [about how his mail kept being forwarded to my house] and they promised it wouldn't happen again, for the third time.
--Boyfriend
Even though what he wrote today was NOT like something he would have written when we were *together*, it is very different because in today's note he wrote, "Here is your key--I'm sorry I didn't get it to you sooner" (expression of remorse, for something I never asked him to do). "I hope you are doing well." (expression that he cares about how I am doing, at some basic level).
So maybe, somewhere deep inside that, is a tiny little spec of love somewhere.
One of my goals that would show that he might be "turning" was that he would contact me for some reason. And he did. Baby step?
