...I have shown everything to h, gave him my love and shown my soul, and he didn't want it, and he threw it aside, and I need to get past this, because if I dont my marriage will be over
Can you view this a little differently? Perhaps that your H was so caught up in his own struggles and challenges that he was not able (worthy?) to connect with your love and your soul - at that time.
Try not to view it as a rejection of you and your soul. But a time in the past when he was unable to connect properly with you.
Use positive affirmations that you can write and recite throughout day, that can counter any negative thoughts that crop up from the unpleasant days which are in the past. Live in the present with positive, expectant thoughts of better days ahead.
Easy for me to say...I am still praying that my W will agree to attend Retrouvaille next month.
I appreciate your sharing the facts of the hard work that piecing can be.
Take care, and maybe try listening to the Peter Gabriel duet with Kate Bush - "Don't Give Up". I find a lot of hope in that song.
Best wishes,
LG
Me 46 WAW 45 M 21 yrs
WAW: "I need to be alone" 12/06 W moves out 3/07 Mediation finalized 08/08
