I can relate to some of your problems. My wife left and it made me realize how much I had taken her for granted. Even though I thought I was doing all the important things a H should and none of the things a husband shouldn't do, I really missed the mark as far as what really counts. If you haven't read "the 5 love languages" or "his needs, her needs" I would recommend one or the other, they opened my eyes to a lot of what was going wrong. Like not doing chores wasn't just making her feel like I didn't do enough around the house but actually made her feel like I didn't love her by not doing these things. weird but it makes more sense to me now.