I wanted to post this earlier, but with the kids currently being on spring break, I'm getting sidetracked over here.
Had one heck of a dream last night. From what I can remember:
H and I were back together as a couple. Our boys were nowhere in this dream, but I was pregnant! Strange - I had my tubes tied after having S3!
Anyway, the girl H was dating for the last year (I will refer to her as OW) kept calling and meddling in our lives. I got on the phone with her and told her she better stay the he** away from my H, and she screams and says, "Don't f***ing tell me what to do! He made promises to me! He said he would give me children!"
I hang up and call the authorities, requesting to have a restraining order against OW. The officer says will do, then the very next morning, calls and says to me, "Get some things together quickly. We are moving you and your H to a safe place." I ask what's going on, and the officer tells me that the OW is going around to places I'm known to be and is with a man who is concealing a weapon, most likely a gun. As the officer is telling me all of this, I'm envisioning (in my dream) seeing OW at the high school I attended, at the local grocery store, the park where I take the kids to, even in my house! She was everywhere I ever felt safe.
Now here's where it gets really crazy!!!
Next thing I remember, I was sitting up in a tree with my H, still very pregnant, and down in the fenced-in yard below us, there was a snake, a dog, a cat, and a rabbit. A fox was coming into the yard, and I found it to be threatening. H said, "Don't worry about it. It's just a fox; it won't hurt you. It's gonna go for the rabbit."
But I told him no, it's the OW (in the form of the fox). Next thing I know, I fall out of the tree, the fox sets its sight on me, and is chasing me all over the yard. H is gone; I don't know what happened to him. I am scared and feel helpless but have this unbelievable strength to keep running and outwitting OW, never letting the fox get close enough to do any real damage.
That's all I remember.
Crazy, huh??!!!
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell
Very crazy indeed, but somehow I think it's my subconscious telling me that although I feel there's been an invasion into my comfort zone(s), I am strong enough to get through it all. My insecurities may persist, but I will always come out on top.
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell
As the officer is telling me all of this, I'm envisioning (in my dream) seeing OW at the high school I attended, at the local grocery store, the park where I take the kids to, even in my house! She was everywhere I ever felt safe.
Cuckoo, cuckoo!!! 