Wow this weekend was a real eye opener. I needed it to happen so I could see where I am in my mind. I don't know how I feel about my h anymore, weird to say that but it is almost as if my hope is almost completely gone. Realization of the affair of the fact that he is sleeping with someone else, and the fact that when he talks to me at night he is in bed with this ow is sinking in. It took me meeting someone and going on one date to realize how monumental this really is. I went on one squeeky clean date and it felt horribly wrong, how he could cheat I don't know! I get upset with some db'rs who have a walk away who wants to stay at home because mine never gave us a chance he walked out and chose the ow, he never looked back and keeps informing me that she is all he has ever wanted in life. he never cried for me and does not miss me. He did this all after we had our d and started his a when she was around 6 months old and walked when she was 8 months old. What a swine!!!!! I have so much that I want to tell him but won't cos it would be bad. How could he do it?, what a freakin coward.......Anyway I informed the guy that I went on a date with that I am not interested in anything other than friendship and he was cool with that, I feel the weight lifted off my shoulders.
