H asked for divorce last night...HELP!

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thank you so much everyone. yesterday was the worst day of my life by far. i went to my doc and he gave me xanax but so far all it does is make me tired. i couldn't even get up for work today. then i went to a counselor. i don't know that it helped but maybe in the future it will.
i need to get out of my house today. i'm feeling really depressed and alone. i went to put on my rings like i do everyday and almost threw up. my engagement ring and wedding band are so beautiful and i'm so used to wearing them. now they're just sitting in my jewelry box.
i still haven't eaten since sunday. i just can't bring myself to do it. H stayed at home last night, in our bed. as messed up as it sounds its kind of comforting for him to be here. i'm not sure what i would do here all alone. i don't know if i could get through.
my family is in another state and all of our friends are his friends. his parents have been really supportive of me but let's face it...they're his family not mine. the support will only last so long.
i'm not doing good. i don't know what to do with myself. the crying is nonstop. i know he won't change his mind. i had a little bit of hope left that he would but i groveled, and pleaded, and begged last night and it did no good. his mind is made up. the man i thought i would spend the rest of my life with is gone. i have no friends here just my dogs. i feel like curling up in a ball and never waking up again.