I feel so much of your pain. I am hear to tell you it will get better. Get a lawyer. Get on some antidepressants as soon as you can. You do not know how this will play out.
We are here for you to help you through the steps.
Find comfort in your friends and people at work.
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11