This is a vent and I understand that you can't change another person but this is just how I am feeling today so I need to type it out.

I feel like I was pretty damn good before. I was a very nice wife to my H, I do everything around the house 95% of the parenting, got him drinks, got him meals am supportive of whatever he does and constantly stroke his ego. I always complimented him on when he looked good, had a nice butt ect. I never denied ML although I may not have initiated enough. On a personal level, I am hard working, successful for the area I live in, have good friends who all think I am a lot of fun, have a tonne of personality and am about the most loyal person you are ever going to meet. Now I have to work on becoming a person that my husband wants to be with???

Yes I have been controlling it the past, and that I can and am working on but it is so hard to try to make all these changes to what I think was a very good package to begin with while H gets to continue being a person who takes for granted, never compliments, never expresses love, and basically behaves like the spoiled youngest child that he is, and is actually excelling at these attitudes now that he realizes I am trying to be less controlling. And yes I know all these things about him accept them and love him anyways.

Once again, no need to comment on this mental break down, I just needed to type it out before I go nuts.


Last edited by neecy22; 03/25/08 03:13 PM.
Me~34
H~38
D6.5

EA/PA-DEC.07

Moved out~Apr.13,08
Sep. Papers~Dec.7,08
No contact order ~Dec.9,08 and again October 13, 2009