God give me the patience and the strength...2

[theotherhalf]

Do you ever get the feeling that you are so totally fooling yourself. That you are stuck in wishing for what you can't have and what will never be. That reality has left you. That reality is telling you that you H is gone and never coming back. He has made it very clear that he is done with you. Never waivered. But your love for him is keeping you blind to the facts and you are living in neverland.

My prayers seem to be going unanswered...

My hopes are leaving me...

Things just keep getting worse instead of better...