Just had a long Weekend , Got away by myself for a couple of days which was great.
I have struggled with the no contact , I went around and mowed W's lawns ( big job) she was not home but got a thankyou txt later . W is showing a great deal of frustration and anger which is not directed at me in particular. W had a tiff with D yesterday. I invited w for dinner with the family yesterday and she was still wound up , but I had her laughing by the time she left. She is under some amount of pressure from somewhere or someone and expressed some dismay at one her friends who is pushing her to do things she is not happy with . I validated and listened.
i sometimes think that I am just a spectator , getting on with life and watching what she is doing. For me that is the best way as it saves me from getting too involved , there are glimses of the woman I loved but a lot of the time there is a selfish person who has no consideration for the feelings of those around her including her children. Thats a person I am happy to avoid.
