Worried I found DB too late #2

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Thanks Hound! I'm feeling good without having my hopes up because I'm happy with how it's worked out so far. Just leaving it at that. You know, I was just on the way home from the doc's office thinking that I'm just going to buy two tickets and go regardless.

I'm not posting one side of the story and I'm honestly not even concerned about his indecision on the matter, more a tad bit bummed about the timing. This friend is his best friend, is a good friend of mine and is probably the one person we know who knows the whole story between both of us. He's a good source of friendship, is honest and unbiased and is a great listener. It'd do my H well to visit and recharge his soul.

I do want to give myself a pat on the back for a number of things this week that the old me would have commented (OK, harped) on but didn't. Really and truly I'm learning how to just can it and let it go. Only once did I say something biting, but even he agreed that it was warranted. Came back from a great day on Saturday right at dinnertime. H was going out with friends and the rest of us to dinner. S5 asked if he could go on the computer, I said no because we were leaving. Then S5 asks Dad, who says yes. I told him to get off the computer so we could go, S5 starts crying and H starts to walk out the door. I did comment on the unfairness that he gets to just walk away and I'm the one having to deal with the crying and that I wish next time he would ask me unless he was willing/able to stick around to deal with the repercussions. H apologized, said he understood and left looking kind of stricken. When he came the next morning, I was extra PMA and acted as if nothing had happened the night before because I didn't want it to turn into a big deal. All was fine yesterday and no ill affects. So we had an issue, dealt with it honestly even though it was uncomfortable and then it was gone.