Frank, I really wish that woman would get out of your house.
If I say anymore it's going to be ugly so I'll just shut up and keep wishing you well.
I always like to hear your 'ugly' comments as well as your 'pretty' ones.
Last night she came back to get her toothbrush and other stuff she forgot. She was all pleasant and nice. This morning she came home to shower up and get herself breakfast. Nobody got up while she was here so she was alone.
Me, I'm sitting here feeling hopeless about life. Financially it looks bleak. I think I will lose the house unless a miracle happens. It isn't that money cannot be earned, it's that I am so overwhelmed emotionally that it's so hard to focus. Anxiety eats me up a lot of the day. The Lexapro seems to be slowly helping but it's tough.
What was she thinking? That if she just said "I'm done, I want to be happy!" everything would magically change? I guess she didn't think that I was 'really' in a depression. Or that doing what she's doing would knock me down when I was trying to get up again.
I try to be pleasant but I just want to UNLOAD on her, tell her what a selfish, irresponsible, stupid a-hole she is. But really, would that help? Nope, she'd just get her friends to validate how 'sick' Frank is, how he's 'lashing out' or some other stupidity.
'F' her. I hate this, I hate that I hurt all the time and it interferes with my focus. It's been going on for so long I don't know what it feels like to have peace in my life.
GOD DAMN HER SHE REALLY F'KED ME WHEN I WAS DOWN. She "Doesn't want to be a wife any more?" WHEN was she going to START?
