Yet another relative of MLM's has died...this time a 24-yr old young man who had his whole life ahead of us.

I am feeling very down today...

I feel like my H is stuck. I feel like he is complacent with the way things are...i feel like he is cake eating...I feel like everything else is more important than I am, than our R is, than our M is...

People say that sometimes a traumatic event makes them wake up...but honestly, I don't believe that he will ever wake up. I think he is okay with having separate lives. I think it makes HIS life much easier...he doesn't have to make any choices or decisions. He doesn't have to face up to anything.

I don't want to live like this anymore.

Aug '06: H moved out
July '08: H had a kid with the OW
May 12 '09: emancipation day

"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller