Baby steps in the right direction (thread 3)

[Starshyne]

Wow klm, I really can relate to what you are saying. I feel right now like I am mourning the loss of a child I never had. H and I were supposed to start trying this month (as per the conversation we had back in October after my last gyno appointment). H always wanted to have kids, but I kept putting it off for reasons. But I was ready and now H acts like neither one of us ever wanted kids. It hurts, doesn't it?

If I was just dating my H and not married, this R would have been long done with. He isn't the man I married at all. He is far from it. Sometimes I see the "old" him sneak into my life now and then. Most of the time he isn't there. He is a depressed and bitter person who is extremely lazy. Not the highly motivated and compassionate man I met 7 years ago.

I wish I had some great words to tell you...but I don't. Just keep working at it. I don't think you should give up because I believe the man you married is still in there somewhere.

Sara