no expectations 6

[peacetoday]

I keep thinking of H and I confrontation on saturday
I really said it all
I dont know if he heard it at all
baffling to me that H didnt distance himself when he came and was friendly and playful with kids but when I returned last night he was in a hurry to go

I spoke with a friend today who was a WAW many years ago
she was probably late 20's when she left
she said how she always wondered what would have happened if she faced herself instead of fleeing her first M
she wound up M again to an addict, and her life became hell for many years and now she is D again

I just meditated and I feel my message is to keep going
to leave H behind and move on with life
I am here and I can trust that if I see any positive movement on H part I can stop and look
if I see more of the same...I need to keep going
no more energy can be placed in this
as it will interfere with my life and poosbly gods plan for me
I have to trust myself
and go
peace