Please help...need MLC advice

[tpaschal]

Hello, all. Hope you had a happy and blessed Easter.

Mine was blessed, in many ways, but the "happy" part was harder. The kids and I had our traditional Easter morning egg hunt in the house, ooh-ed and aah-ed over what the Easter bunny brought, then got ready and went to church. We went to in-laws afterwards and spent the afternoon there. Ate lunch, hunted eggs, blew bubbles, and flew kites. I know I'm blessed to have my children healthy and with me, and blessed to have the support of my in-laws (even though sometimes they drive me nuts!), but still feel so lost and alone.

I did find joy in the small things---flying kites with the kids, etc., but happiness? I'm finding that very hard.

I posted in TRUSTING's thread that my H is missing out not just on seeing his kids grow up, but on the last years of his parents' lives.

I just don't understand it.

During the Easter sermon, several things the pastor said reminded S9 of what was happening with Daddy, and he whispered to me throughout. Breaks my heart.

In the evening D14 asked if H had called or texted at all, and I told her no. I encouraged her to call him, but she quietly refused. I think she's afraid of more rejection.

WHEN is H going to WAKE UP???

And WHY do I KEEP asking that???????