Help me act AS IF, Thread 4

[newnamenewlife]

Dinner went well (with the help of some wine.) I feel validated by everyone except my H so being around other people helps--and makes me realize just how invisible I feel around H.

My H also feels like he gave and gave for years and years. Honestly, I don't know why he sees it as so black and white--as if I never gave anything back? I am trying to see our R the way he describes it and I just can't. I guess there is no absolute truth--there is what he sees and what I see. I wish he would just lighten up, though, sometimes. We'd be better off now (IMO) if we had gone with the surge in reconnection and sex that happened right after the bomb. Now H has a force field around him--no touching, no eye contact--and it's so empty and depressing.

Anyway, off to GAL--walking around the park with a friend.
hugs to you!