MLC BS/2?

[Patrick325]

I sometimes try resist her control over me. Sometimes I get caught up in the idea that if she is mad at me she is getting further away from me. So I will try to do what she wants to keep that connection. But I realize that she is controlling me in this way. The funny thing is that if I calmly tell her know she gets over it and treats me better next time.

It was strange today. I went to OM's house to pick up the twins for church. She came out (my W, wearing one of his tshirts) and gave my d14 that is staying with me, an easter basket. She even came over and gave me a piece of chocolate and smiled. Then when I dropped them off she was pretty nice to me. The thing is that it made me angry that she was happy and being nice to me. I sat in church and actually felt the anger build up over that. I don't want to accept this relationship--to me it's not right. In church they spoke of forgiveness and suddenly I felt the anger wash away and I felt peaceful. It was nice for once to feel at peace and I guess that forgiveness has a lot to do with it. The only thing now is I am afraid that I am throwing in the towel when I accept this sitch. I mean, if I accept her living with this guy is it like approving of it?? How does that look to my kids?? I don't want anyone including my kids, to think that it's ok for a wife to do this to a husband(or vica versa)...