Ditto, fish. You and W got back together too early, it was too much too soon. Now, regroup and look at what you would do differently. Lastly, stay away from the booze, especially around your W! It always, and I mean ALWAYS, makes things worse. W also needs time and space to deal with the OM issue, you have to back off and let her do so. Why do people think roller coasters are fun rides? Beats me! Hang in there fish, it's not over till it's over and that's still a long ways off in this sitch.