Hello Mr. MLC part deux!!

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OK I am back. Got her calmed but WOW what a bad night this was for her. She has not yet had a night like this.

Anyway back to my day with H. He talked and talked and we joked and laughed like good old times. I let him do lots of talking and that he did. He mentioned that he doesn't go OUT partying nearly as much as I assume he does but that he has taken a liking to Yager and Red Bull which is apparently mixed together...ewwwwwwww. Sounds like he is truly trying to be 21 again to me.

I don't really understand why he is so private about all these new friends he has made though. I know I don't know them but he always loved to tell me about new people he would meet and their little quirks and what he liked or disliked about them and would usually tell me also if he felt I would like them but I do realize we aren't that same couple anymore either. However I can't waste time trying to figure this part out.

He professed that he WILL ALWAYS provide for us above and beyond what any court tells him because we are his responsibility. He also informed me that he is adding softball to his activity list on Monday nights so now he will have that on Mon. and volleyball on Tues. and Weds. which there is no way he would have been able to do if he were still home here as that would have him away from us 3 nights out of every week. See, he is really enjoying this freedom. I think he is honestly just liking being a DUDE and hanging out. He is watching SPIKE more which would indicate he is infront of a TV more....hmmmmm.....shared some changes happening at work and how he is just going with the flow for now and making sure nothing else drastically happens to him there. Hell it isn't like they could cut his pay anymore.

He admitted to me that was very pissed about what I did with the income tax return but after thinking about it understands why I did it the way I did and appreciates that I was so concerned or the house. He also admitted that he did earlier on in this seperation think about clsing the bank account so I couldn't have access but that he was thinking out of anger and doesn't even know now why he was so angry at first. I attempted to throw in an apology for things I did to make him feel like I had been the one to ruin him financially since he made the money and I spent it and he said not to worry about that, that it is all behind us now.

Something else he said that I just listened to which is something he said a month or so ago was that he wonders if I should move closer to town where I have the opportunity for a guaranteed job. Moving closer to town would be taking me and the kids back to wher we lived before we moved here and would also take me and them closer to his work again. I wonder if he is trying to suggest that if I move back that way that he would feel better since we would be back in familiar territory like before we moved and that maybe if we were closer to his work he might consider coming back home?!?!?! I won't even begin to think about that one too much more unless he continues to mention that.

I voiced my concern to him about the uncertainty of renting since there are no guarantees the kids and I wouldn't have to keep moving based on landlord needs or wants and how we would be losing the tax benefits and add the cost of renters insurance. He said that once this house sells that he will gladly buy us a house so that the kdis and I have that security as he wants us to be secure and have a permanent roof. I thought that was very generous and voiced that I would of course expect to be on the deed and title at least and he was more than fine with that. He did stress that getting us situated is his main priority and not him getting his own place just yet.

And of course throughout the day he took many chances to throw in a joke or wise crack about the PA I had and how he thinks it did good for me and feels it made me happy and gave me a glow that he wants me to keep. Even told me that he almost bought me a box of condoms as an Easter gift but wasn't sure how I would react so didn't.

So that in a book version was my day with H. Odd, interesting, fun, and wonderful.

Oh must add that when he brought the kids home he hung out for a few minutes until the kids started asking if he could stay and when he said he couldn't and they started to cry he really RAN to the door, snuck in a quick hug with me and apologized for leaving them with me like this. I think when they get this way he starts to feel the guilt of what he did. MAYBE????