Well, just got home from D12 and I going to the Observatory. I was in a bit of anxiety, I sure wish the drugs would help more.
Anyways, W was home, door was locked and she was in her room. She arranged with D12 to stay over with her at the other house tonight.
Then she asked me what D17's plans were since she isn't home. I said most likely the same as every other night this week. She stays at her boyfriends till 11, I pick her up. The W says "I'll call her and find out". I said that I'd call her to confirm since I'm picking her up. W insists she will call her and leaves the room.
So, I call D17, no answer. No problem she is probably out hiking or something. I tell W I called and no answer and she is huffy ans says that SHE will call her also.
Then she goes to leave and I asked her if she was taking a car to please take the minivan. She says 'Ya Vole!' and leaves in a huff.
It's so difficult. On the one hand I want to be nice and keep things nice, on the other hand she's hurting me, the kids, even the dogs. Even if she really HAS to leave the marriage, she could be a lot more caring about it. I mean, as StepMom said last night, if you've loved someone for 20 years you should at least put forth some effort to be decent towards them.
I'm sooo tired of this hurting every day. And the 'nice when I'm nice, mean when I'm even slightly off of nice'.
