Hey! Not much really. Made french toast for breakfast then in the PM H came over to help D with some homework (stayed for 45 minutes). I asked him if he'd go out to dinner with us but he said that he couldn't. He said that after me telling him on Thursday that I didn't want to see his face on Sunday that I had to understand the consequesnce of my behaviour/words and I had to start acting my age. He said he forgives me for the outburst but that I need to realize I can't have my way the very next day. So he kept to his word and didn't go out with us. I can respect that. D and I went to Mickey Dees and then for ice cream. She's getting ready for bed now.
The thing is that today is also my 37th birthday and its the first time in 10 years that H hasn't been here with me. Probably be the only time in my whole life that Easter Sunday is also my Birthday.
I said I would go dark and that didn't go very well. I'll get back on the wagon again and try to stay dark for a longer time this time. I haven't called him as much as before but still too many times for supposedly being dark.
Jen
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
