SomeWhere over the rainbow 2

[Dr LOve]

There are still some things I have to let my groupies know about nephew sitch. But I don't want to post them here. When I get the energy I will e-mail ya. Well I would if I had you e-mails but I don't do if I did you could have expected something’s later.

Journaling,

My back is worst today. I will need to go to the doctor. W thinks I may have a pinched nerve... Not sure what that means. I have been reflecting back. As long as most of you have "known" me it seems that I have had one thing or another wrong with me. This is true but it was not always that way. Before all this started I was NEVER sick. I am thinking it could be the stress of all this crap that has affected me. IF I don't want to keep getting "sick" I need to take care of this sitch.
Right Now is a bad time. Wife is so upbeat about her possible job prospects. She has finely lowered her expectations to a reasonable level. I a calling the doctor today for an appointment Monday. I can't afford to go to emergency this weekend. (Just paid out allot of money taking son.
Last night I was sitting/laying in my chair and W asked me if I wanted some banana nut bread she made. (Wow boost to my PMA). She has also brought ice packs for me. So here I go feeling good and then this morning W tells me I will have to find a way to the doctor because she needs to study for her job interviews. So I start again taking it personal. But I know I should not. I know this is an important step in rebuilding my marriage if I want to rebuild it. I want to send W a link to retro but I am still going to wait. I do not want to over load her thinking process.
I almost cried this morning. I was lying there thinking about my sitch. I was ready to go into wife’s room and tell her lets just go our separate ways...I feel so useless right now.

Ok enough of a Dr Love pity party... I need to go call the real Dr.

Be back soon

Dr LOve