Financials set to be sorted.

[ACJ]

I didn't manage to get myself an outfit for D17s birthday but it wasn't for the want of trying. I did get one for D12 though. S15 refused to even come with us. I will need to look elsewhere for mine later in the week.

As far as I am aware H has not sent an RSVP for D17s birthday. SIL told D17 and I that he told them he was going but that's as close as we've come to finding out. I understand from D17 that he wasn't very happy that his invitation specifically said 'to dad'. He went on about OW being his partner and D17 just told him that she didn't know her, didn't want to know her and why would she want a 'stranger' at her 18th? This was in his house with OW lurking in it! So I hope he has got the message. I don't think she will ever forgive him if he either doesn't come at all or tries to bring OW.

I did go shopping with my friend. I didn't find what I was looking for but it was nice to have someone with me to at least give thier opinion. I can't say it was fun b/c I wasn't really in the mood but it did get me out of the house for a few hours. When we got back to her house we went round to see a mutual friend for a couple of hours. D12 was sleeping out so I didn't need to be in as early as I might otherwise had to do.

Today has not been a good day for me. I was up for 4 hours before anyone even spoke to me (S15 never gets up til lunch time at weekends). The more time goes on the more alone I feel. I need to learn to be comfortable with my own compnay otherwise when the kids have all left home I'll go mad.

JMW I'm glad you have reached acceptance. I am fighting this I know. I feel that if I accept I have given in. However I'm also tired of fighting.